Luke 22:19

19 And He took bread, gave thanks and broke it, and gaveit to them, saying, “This is Mybody which is given for you; do this in remembrance of Me.”



Matt 6:28

28 “So why do you worry about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin;

Who is my source?

What are the odds of seeing wild mushrooms (quite a lot of them!) growing by the road beside a traffic light in an uban city? The very next day I passed-by the same pavement, they were gone literally. Wonder if a street cleaner removed them? But I like to believe that this beautiful sight was specially placed for me.

Matthew 6:26-27

26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life.

This is a reminder of who my source is. If we really go hungry, then God will plant food along our paths. Time to throw away that “worrying” and imagine provisions along my path and always remember to stop and pick up the food. Do not walk pass or turn away. Pick them up! They are mine! Take it!

Was this a traveling in the spirit or a mere dream?

I had a tertiary school friend who passed away suddenly due to a tragic car accident. He was a non believer. And at that time I was saved less then a year. The night before his death we were still texting each other, then next morning I received a text from his brother that he had passed on. His face was even splashed across the local papers, apparently his car hitted the road divider when his friend was driving his car and he was in the passenger seat. I saw him in his coffin with a huge bump on his forth head. He was a regular in the Navy and was looking forward to a new career and a new relationship with his then girlfriend. I could not fathom why was this happening to him.

This put me in guilt for a very long time as I did not shared Jesus with him and even “complained” to him about the expectations that I had with the church and my then cell group. At that time, I felt awkward with my believing friends and I could bond better with the secular pals. I had no confidence in my own walk with the Lord since I was a baby Christian plus many incorrect teachings from a conservative Church.

During the funeral, his aunt shared that strangely he was asking questions about life prior to weeks before the accident. And coincidentally, after that his aunt and I attended the same Word of faith church!

My pastor mentioned before that even if someone, for example from a tribe in isolated Africa who have not had a chance to hear the gospel, but if he has a good conscience and if hidden deep in his heart he believes that there is a God, when this person is in danger and going to die, the last second he cries out ” God help me”. He will be saved.

Back to my friend’s story, one night about 10 years ago I had a queer dream about him. And in this dream, I “knew” that I was in heaven having a conversation with my friend. During that time in the mid-2000s, not many, I think zero man of God touched on topics like traveling in the spirit and translocation by faith. So for me, this experience felt like a dream. After that night, all my guilts about not telling my friend about Jesus and about me being a bad and not performing Christian were washed off.

This illustration below was what we were doing in a place I felt like it’s paradise. Many years had past and this scene is still vividly in my thoughts compartment, and it did not seemed like I was chatting with a death person. Jotting this down here, since I have long since relate this blog as my secret journal.

Seeing in the spirit class : Adventures in Indentity group

In this class via Skype, the coaches helped us to cultivate our spiritual sense in the spiritual realm. As our level of intimacy with the Lord will grow (I want it!) as we practised to become more sensitive to our spiritual sight, hearing and smell.

These notes were taken during class:

Heb 5:14

But solid food belongs to those who are mature, for those who through practise have powers of discernment that are trained to distinguish good from evil.

2 King 6:17

Then Elisha prayed, “Lord, open his eyes and let him see.” So the Lord opened the eyes of the young man, and he saw that the mountain was fulll of horses and chariots of fire surrounding Elisha.

Eph 1:18-19

that the eyes of your understanding may be enlightened, that you may know the hope of His calling and what are the riches of the glory of His inheritance among the saints, and what is the surpassing greatness of His power toward us who believe, according to the working of His mighty power…

This was a great way to exercise our spiritual senses, because how many of us were being to “lazy” or not motivated to do it by ourselves. The coaches led us into the activation and what was shared by the members in the group was so “deep”. As for myself, here are my journaling:

1st activation

Imagine a door, and Jesus handling you a key, open the door and see what is behind the door:

As I closed my eyes, I saw an wooden door. Someone passed me an old rusty copper key. I couldn’t see Jesus, it was just a hand. I hesitated and paused but opened the door anyway. Inside was a beautiful garden (ironically a couple of members also saw their own version of garden during the practise), with green grass, quiet stream, chirping birds and colorful flowers.

2nd activation

Imagine that you are having lunch with Jesus. Where is the place. Ask Jesus where does he want you to go from here in this season.

As I closed my eyes, I tried not to force myself to imagine. I actually thought that I would be at MacDonald or a fastfood joint. But I was in an outdoor dinning table at a shopping mall near my place. Someone was sitting at my table but I could not see His face. His outlines were just blurly and glowing, not even able to see the clothes. Just a white image of a person. I was having a plate of mushroom cream spaghetti and a glass of ice lemon tea. So I asked Him, where do I go from here, how do I move forward in my spiritual journey? He was slient.

[One of the coach actually advised me to revisit this place again and instead of asking about how do “I” from here, what can “I” do… Ask Jesus instead, what does He want me to go from here. I will definitely revisit again next time to get an answer.]

3rd activation

The coach read a passage from the Bible and told us to observe what we see.

Matt 14:13-33

It was the story of the feeding of the 5000 and Peter walking on water. Throughout the whole scene on the grass patch when Jesus was performing the multiplication, I was like a 3rd person watching and hiding behind a large rock. Then the story unfolds to the boat. When Peter was upon the water talking with Jesus, I was also hiding somewhere in that boat. From what I gathered, I guess I have to stop hiding, start believing and step out fully to what I have to learn.


The class was scheduled to start at 1am my country’s time. So before the appointment, I took a nap on and off while waiting for the session to begin. Throughout this time, I kept smelling the scent of a frangipani flower. Frangipani is a tropical tree found in Asia. So I shared in the class if anyone also smell it, but no. Probably my sight is faint and weak, so how God encouraged me is by scent of smell. I am staying on the 22 floor, so there is no way that I could smell anything if ever there were frangipani trees below my apartment.

The class ended around 3.30am and my mind was so energized that I had problem sleeping thereafter. Seeing is fun with the Lord but what is most important to me is Lord what do you mean, and why are you showing me these. Hope I get my answer!